Author: Bella

Reflections on A Still Summer Day Without AC

I fan myself and it sounds like violence in my ear   Each puff like your sweaty breath dripping with rage and loathing of some unknown thing deep inside you that you search for deep inside me   Each angry stroke more desperate than the […]

Spring/Summer

(Spring)  Nothing caresses me but the wind (these days) It moves over me and I am silent and still (-Bliss-) ———- (Summer) There is a certain way The still dust Swirls In the sun When the door Opens

Carcass 

Carcass 

She is popping into my head lately (as she does this time of year). It always takes me a moment to realize why; that the anniversary is looming. I want her to visit. I want to talk to her. I hear “Another One Bites the […]

Terrain

I am told I am beautiful I am told to have a nice day I am told I look good I am told I am sexy I am told daaaaaaaaaaamn I am told hissssssss I am told click of tongue I am told sound of […]

Embody, Friday March 17 at John Doe Gallery

Embody, Friday March 17 at John Doe Gallery

I’ve seen Shani Ha’s captivating sculptures in action before; entitled Embody, the series consists of Ha’s wearable body sculptures paired with a dancer who is engulfed by the giant, malleable cloth tubes and performs movements with the amorphous matter. If you catch a glimpse of […]

The Ally vs. the Queer

The Ally vs. the Queer

72 hours. I am still numb. But also fatigued (from 72 hours of numbness). I can barely find that part of me which says “smile;” which says “do not cry openly on this train/on this sidewalk/in this bar;” which holds it in until I make […]

How To Dress After a Mass Murder (plus more hot style tips for Summer)

How To Dress After a Mass Murder (plus more hot style tips for Summer)

None of it makes sense. I don’t mean I couldn’t find an outfit. I mean the act of getting dressed (or eating, drinking, doing literally anthying) makes absolutely no sense right now. We woke up to 50 fresh holes ripped in the universe that aren’t […]

A Greeting-Card-Shaped Hole

A Greeting-Card-Shaped Hole

My mom killed herself exactly one week before Mother’s Day in 2009. While the situation was complicated to say the least, its hard not to think of that as some kind of fucked up parting shot. I’ll spare you the sordid history; but even with all the baggage, the truth is that life without […]

The Rest of the Story: Other March Art

The Rest of the Story: Other March Art

This month had so much amazing art it takes two posts (one for the extraordinary art days with my sis, one for the lonely days after she returned to her coast). Here’s the rest of what I saw this month: Brew Reading Series at Hungry Ghost […]

Sister Art Week NYC 2016 Spectacular!

Sister Art Week NYC 2016 Spectacular!

My sis came out for Armory week, so it was art-till-you-drop for days.  For the Armory shows we took in (over the course of 48 hours): Pulse, Volta, Scope, Armory, Art On Paper, Independent, and another one I can’t even remember.  At one point we also […]